I am a stinky sinner. No seriously, I am a fallen human being full of really repulsive sin. Ugliness has been oozing out of me lately, and even worse than that, I have become aware of it!
Its a terrible thing when you realize just how "not all together" you are. I have been a Christian the majority of my life, and yet I am SO not together. Recently, it seems like everyday is a golden opportunity to show me how imperfect I am. I think thats what keeps me from blogging.....I am terrified to see my dark thoughts written for all to see. But yet, I will write, because admittance is the first step to recovery (no, people, I promise I didn't learn that from AA).
These days, I have been struggling with annoyance. Certain people have just flat out been annoying me. Then I noticed that the people's behavior I have been annoyed with is stuff that I do on a regular basis.I do that so much! I get mad with other people for doing the exact same things that I do. I am annoyed with myself! Its a vicious cycle and it has hurt friendships and relationships with my family.The conviction has really set in. And conviction is only as good as what you do with it. So recently I find myself saying "I need to work on that" a lot. Thankfully I have friends and certain family members who love me and patiently correct me while I am going through this phase. I am tired of smelling my own stink!
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